fuck everyone

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS RESTRICTING ME FUCK YOU
WHY CANT I LIVE MY LIFE THE FUCKING WAY I WANT IT
FUCK YOU
FUCK ALL OF YOU

I'm the most awkward person you've ever met

Made friends with shaq today :) he said I'm as awkward as him and that's really not a compliment LOL and today... i messed up sigh i was so awkward around shaq and afiq??????? In the end, i gave myself away as afiq's angel -cries-

My thoughts are all jumbled up and i really hope that my evening run later can cheer me up. On a side note, I'm still trying to list the things that made me happy everyday but it's so hard to think of events on days like these. But, i believe strongly in myself. I did not get into hyruak by chance so i'm going to work hard to prove that Aaron made a right choice in accepting me into hyruak.

Really grateful to have Aaron :') the best FA ever and honestly, the only FA i can imagine myself sharing secrets with and i will show shaq that i can overcome this and be like him too.
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"no matter how bad you fuck up, or makes mistakes you've made during this year, your life, your eternity. You're always allowed to be better"- Donald Glover

Thank you zhiyi for attempting to cheer me up with quotes; the only thing that really motivates me to step up and change my life around, for the better.


xoxo

You're so fine

A tweeted the bobthebuilder challenge
MM approached me today hehehehehe
two presentations done today
talked to ryan today
invited to sing k with yy n friends
skipping sch tmrw

what's there not to be happy about?

;-)

xoxo

Can i be that special friend that you're willing to give up popularity for

Hi to anyone who has stumbled upon this meaningless space...
Deshi has been really good these days, so blessed and thankful to have them with me :-)
All those days of petty quarrels are over and i really feel like i belong here, they are my pillars of strength and there's nothing in the world that i will trade them for. Yesterday, the four of us decided to leave Rainbow. Sem 1.1 will always be the best sem ever, to me. The sem that was so fun, carefree, laughing everyday and not caring about seniors. Nowadays, it's more about impressing people.

I realised that i try to steer clear of all these but recently, i began thinking about it again.

I wish to be your friend...becus you're popular ):

This is bad because i know that if i try to be popular,I will only regret it in the end. I will get hurt, like always.

But the longing to be your friend is too much to bear.

Can I? Can I just be someone who means alot to you? I don't want to be popular, i just want to be close friends with popular people so i can listen to their problems and be happy that i know them and i mean alot to them. That's all i want. Being popular requires too much commitment. I just want to be the friend that is ranked first in your heart and that is enough for me.

Can you help me to fufill my wish?

help me.

please.


xoxo

life

"A mermaid found a swimming lad,
Picked him for her own,
Pressed her body to his body,
Laughed; and plunging down
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown.”

—William Butler Yeats

so sad and unmotivated. fuck

Counting Stars

Hello guyszz,

sorry for not updating much, these few weeks have been just...BUSY. Been rushing homework, assignments, projects and final-sem exams are just around the corner sigh )-: but im trying to stay positive, listing out every little thing that makes me happy everyday, so far so good hahaaha

Deshi has been really funny recently and im really thankful i didnt give up on this friendship although the lonely hearts club are very close now. Talked to aaron about all these friendship problems and im so glad he understands and supports me, the best FA ever :'-)

Tried drawing as a way to release stress and i think i found my new hobby hehehe although i can't draw exceptionally well. It's not that good, but it's still presentable. I'm just really thankful that i started 2014 on a good note and im gonna try my best to make 2014 one of the best years in my life.

OTC is slowly approaching and i really hope that i can be hgl. It's gonna be hard but i will try my best and hopefully, everyone will support me. I want to be myself and love myself, it's gonna be tough but i will try.

"Rather be someone's shot of whisky than everyone else's cup of tea"

xoxo

2014

Happy new year !!!!!!!!!!

So so so glad 2013 is over hahahahah it's not a good year for me at all ):
cried and got hurt at the start of the year and i really learnt alot more about how selfish some people are and who are my true friends.

My new year resolutions are:

1. Lose weight
2. Read more books
3. Not popularity-orientated
4. Save up to 5.5k
5. Have fun and be more loving
6. Better temperament

That's it hahahahah hope i can strike some off soon teehee

-crosses fingers-

xoxo