A tweeted the bobthebuilder challenge
MM approached me today hehehehehe
two presentations done today
talked to ryan today
invited to sing k with yy n friends
skipping sch tmrw
what's there not to be happy about?
;-)
xoxo
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Can i be that special friend that you're willing to give up popularity for
Hi to anyone who has stumbled upon this meaningless space...
Deshi has been really good these days, so blessed and thankful to have them with me :-)
All those days of petty quarrels are over and i really feel like i belong here, they are my pillars of strength and there's nothing in the world that i will trade them for. Yesterday, the four of us decided to leave Rainbow. Sem 1.1 will always be the best sem ever, to me. The sem that was so fun, carefree, laughing everyday and not caring about seniors. Nowadays, it's more about impressing people.
I realised that i try to steer clear of all these but recently, i began thinking about it again.
I wish to be your friend...becus you're popular ):
This is bad because i know that if i try to be popular,I will only regret it in the end. I will get hurt, like always.
But the longing to be your friend is too much to bear.
Can I? Can I just be someone who means alot to you? I don't want to be popular, i just want to be close friends with popular people so i can listen to their problems and be happy that i know them and i mean alot to them. That's all i want. Being popular requires too much commitment. I just want to be the friend that is ranked first in your heart and that is enough for me.
Can you help me to fufill my wish?
help me.
please.
xoxo
Deshi has been really good these days, so blessed and thankful to have them with me :-)
All those days of petty quarrels are over and i really feel like i belong here, they are my pillars of strength and there's nothing in the world that i will trade them for. Yesterday, the four of us decided to leave Rainbow. Sem 1.1 will always be the best sem ever, to me. The sem that was so fun, carefree, laughing everyday and not caring about seniors. Nowadays, it's more about impressing people.
I realised that i try to steer clear of all these but recently, i began thinking about it again.
I wish to be your friend...becus you're popular ):
This is bad because i know that if i try to be popular,I will only regret it in the end. I will get hurt, like always.
But the longing to be your friend is too much to bear.
Can I? Can I just be someone who means alot to you? I don't want to be popular, i just want to be close friends with popular people so i can listen to their problems and be happy that i know them and i mean alot to them. That's all i want. Being popular requires too much commitment. I just want to be the friend that is ranked first in your heart and that is enough for me.
Can you help me to fufill my wish?
help me.
please.
xoxo
Monday, January 27, 2014
life
"A mermaid found a swimming lad,
Picked him for her own,
Pressed her body to his body,
Laughed; and plunging down
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown.”
—William Butler Yeats
so sad and unmotivated. fuck
Picked him for her own,
Pressed her body to his body,
Laughed; and plunging down
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown.”
—William Butler Yeats
so sad and unmotivated. fuck
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Counting Stars
Hello guyszz,
sorry for not updating much, these few weeks have been just...BUSY. Been rushing homework, assignments, projects and final-sem exams are just around the corner sigh )-: but im trying to stay positive, listing out every little thing that makes me happy everyday, so far so good hahaaha
Deshi has been really funny recently and im really thankful i didnt give up on this friendship although the lonely hearts club are very close now. Talked to aaron about all these friendship problems and im so glad he understands and supports me, the best FA ever :'-)
Tried drawing as a way to release stress and i think i found my new hobby hehehe although i can't draw exceptionally well. It's not that good, but it's still presentable. I'm just really thankful that i started 2014 on a good note and im gonna try my best to make 2014 one of the best years in my life.
OTC is slowly approaching and i really hope that i can be hgl. It's gonna be hard but i will try my best and hopefully, everyone will support me. I want to be myself and love myself, it's gonna be tough but i will try.
"Rather be someone's shot of whisky than everyone else's cup of tea"
xoxo
sorry for not updating much, these few weeks have been just...BUSY. Been rushing homework, assignments, projects and final-sem exams are just around the corner sigh )-: but im trying to stay positive, listing out every little thing that makes me happy everyday, so far so good hahaaha
Deshi has been really funny recently and im really thankful i didnt give up on this friendship although the lonely hearts club are very close now. Talked to aaron about all these friendship problems and im so glad he understands and supports me, the best FA ever :'-)
Tried drawing as a way to release stress and i think i found my new hobby hehehe although i can't draw exceptionally well. It's not that good, but it's still presentable. I'm just really thankful that i started 2014 on a good note and im gonna try my best to make 2014 one of the best years in my life.
OTC is slowly approaching and i really hope that i can be hgl. It's gonna be hard but i will try my best and hopefully, everyone will support me. I want to be myself and love myself, it's gonna be tough but i will try.
"Rather be someone's shot of whisky than everyone else's cup of tea"
xoxo
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
2014
Happy new year !!!!!!!!!!
So so so glad 2013 is over hahahahah it's not a good year for me at all ):
cried and got hurt at the start of the year and i really learnt alot more about how selfish some people are and who are my true friends.
My new year resolutions are:
1. Lose weight
2. Read more books
3. Not popularity-orientated
4. Save up to 5.5k
5. Have fun and be more loving
6. Better temperament
That's it hahahahah hope i can strike some off soon teehee
-crosses fingers-
xoxo
So so so glad 2013 is over hahahahah it's not a good year for me at all ):
cried and got hurt at the start of the year and i really learnt alot more about how selfish some people are and who are my true friends.
My new year resolutions are:
1. Lose weight
2. Read more books
3. Not popularity-orientated
4. Save up to 5.5k
5. Have fun and be more loving
6. Better temperament
That's it hahahahah hope i can strike some off soon teehee
-crosses fingers-
xoxo
Saturday, December 28, 2013
love letter
dear samantha
i’m sorry
we have to get a divorce
i know that seems like an odd way to start a love letter but let me explain:
it’s not you
it sure as hell isn’t me
it’s just human beings don’t love as well as insects do
i love you.. far too much to let what we have be ruined by the failings of our species
i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night
i know you would never DO anything, you never do but..
i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night
did you know that when a female fly accepts the pheromones put off by a male fly, it re-writes her brain, destroys the receptors that receive pheromones, sensing the change, the male fly does the same. when two flies love each other they do it so hard, they will never love anything else ever again. if either one of them dies before procreation can happen both sets of genetic code are lost forever. now that… is dedication.
after Elizabeth and i broke up we spent three days dividing everything we had bought together
like if i knew what pots were mine like if i knew which drapes were mine somehow the pain would go away
this is not true
after two praying mantises mate, the nervous system of the male begins to shut down
while he still has control over his motor functions
he flops onto his back, exposing his soft underbelly up to his lover like a gift
she then proceeds to lovingly dice him into tiny cubes
spooning every morsel into her mouth
she wastes nothing
even the exoskeleton goes
she does this so that once their children are born she has something to regurgitate to feed them
now that.. is selflessness
i could never do that for you
so i have a new plan
i’m gonna leave you now
i’m gonna spend the rest of my life committing petty injustices
i hope you do the same
i will jay walk at every opportunity
i will steal things i could easily afford
i will be rude to strangers
i hope you do the same
i hope reincarnation is real
i hope our petty crimes are enough to cause us to be reborn as lesser creatures
i hope we are reborn as flies
so that we can love each other as hard as we were meant to.
-Jared Singer
Such a sad and emotional love letter, but i wonder how i will feel if im ever a recipient of such a letter. It's funny how some things are not necessarily good when complicated, like love.
-
met up with AMB today for POP and i was really happy hahaha seeing my batchmates and some juniors, no matter how much i say i hate band, i will still love it with all my heart. Met mr lim and i really could feel his love sighh his warm smile and his teasings :'-) i really love him alot haahah although he's a reason why i hate myself sometimes.
After POP, walked to grandma house for a simple xmas dinner and it was really good. My whole family kept making jokes and the atmosphere was so loving and comfortable and warm haahaha so thankful and lucky to have a bunch of such amazing family members. Heard that justin is scoring all A's again in uni and he's currently going london, kinda regret i didn't get to know him more till this year.
Really really really love my family and friends (amb) and today was simply a good day becus i received stickers from ken too!!! And they are from legit designers heehehehehe :-)
gonna prepare to sleep now
xoxo
i’m sorry
we have to get a divorce
i know that seems like an odd way to start a love letter but let me explain:
it’s not you
it sure as hell isn’t me
it’s just human beings don’t love as well as insects do
i love you.. far too much to let what we have be ruined by the failings of our species
i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night
i know you would never DO anything, you never do but..
i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night
did you know that when a female fly accepts the pheromones put off by a male fly, it re-writes her brain, destroys the receptors that receive pheromones, sensing the change, the male fly does the same. when two flies love each other they do it so hard, they will never love anything else ever again. if either one of them dies before procreation can happen both sets of genetic code are lost forever. now that… is dedication.
after Elizabeth and i broke up we spent three days dividing everything we had bought together
like if i knew what pots were mine like if i knew which drapes were mine somehow the pain would go away
this is not true
after two praying mantises mate, the nervous system of the male begins to shut down
while he still has control over his motor functions
he flops onto his back, exposing his soft underbelly up to his lover like a gift
she then proceeds to lovingly dice him into tiny cubes
spooning every morsel into her mouth
she wastes nothing
even the exoskeleton goes
she does this so that once their children are born she has something to regurgitate to feed them
now that.. is selflessness
i could never do that for you
so i have a new plan
i’m gonna leave you now
i’m gonna spend the rest of my life committing petty injustices
i hope you do the same
i will jay walk at every opportunity
i will steal things i could easily afford
i will be rude to strangers
i hope you do the same
i hope reincarnation is real
i hope our petty crimes are enough to cause us to be reborn as lesser creatures
i hope we are reborn as flies
so that we can love each other as hard as we were meant to.
-Jared Singer
Such a sad and emotional love letter, but i wonder how i will feel if im ever a recipient of such a letter. It's funny how some things are not necessarily good when complicated, like love.
-
met up with AMB today for POP and i was really happy hahaha seeing my batchmates and some juniors, no matter how much i say i hate band, i will still love it with all my heart. Met mr lim and i really could feel his love sighh his warm smile and his teasings :'-) i really love him alot haahah although he's a reason why i hate myself sometimes.
After POP, walked to grandma house for a simple xmas dinner and it was really good. My whole family kept making jokes and the atmosphere was so loving and comfortable and warm haahaha so thankful and lucky to have a bunch of such amazing family members. Heard that justin is scoring all A's again in uni and he's currently going london, kinda regret i didn't get to know him more till this year.
Really really really love my family and friends (amb) and today was simply a good day becus i received stickers from ken too!!! And they are from legit designers heehehehehe :-)
gonna prepare to sleep now
xoxo
Friday, December 27, 2013
LEAVE ME ALONE
'don't tell me things i already know'
-my feelings all summed up today
Today was SHITTY.
Zy was late and we just studied..didnt really catch up much but i was really surprised by her present lol (hand cream) then she left me to find her fam for dinz. Thought she might stay and accompany me but it's ok, i wasn't in a good mood to chit chat also and i'd rather be alone. ella called but i rejected her and atiqah's request to go simpang (too far) plus i wanted to do some shopping. Shopped and i saw a pair of maroon camo shoes i really liked??!! Stood there for 5 mins searching for size converters and this freaking shop assistant took a pair from the rack and i realised it ran out of my size fuck. Maybe that shop assistant took my size sigh...paced around the level for 10 mins before asking for my size but all are already displayed :'-( rushed to kino to buy a book for my sis (the alchemist) becus i still remember mark lo saying it's a really nice book and i want to read it for myself hahahahaha then brisk walk-ed to orchard outlet and
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I FOUND THE FUCKING SHOE!!!!!!! hallelujah hahahahah was so freaking happy and thinking about it, why was i hesitant when paying? i love it ahhhh ahahahha and i bought a new top too (leather x shiny maroon)
was feeling proud and happy till i came home and checked my phone. told to change my style and i look like a typical chinese girl and my hair and my specs and my fasion sense.
OK OK OK STOP
-my feelings all summed up today
Today was SHITTY.
Zy was late and we just studied..didnt really catch up much but i was really surprised by her present lol (hand cream) then she left me to find her fam for dinz. Thought she might stay and accompany me but it's ok, i wasn't in a good mood to chit chat also and i'd rather be alone. ella called but i rejected her and atiqah's request to go simpang (too far) plus i wanted to do some shopping. Shopped and i saw a pair of maroon camo shoes i really liked??!! Stood there for 5 mins searching for size converters and this freaking shop assistant took a pair from the rack and i realised it ran out of my size fuck. Maybe that shop assistant took my size sigh...paced around the level for 10 mins before asking for my size but all are already displayed :'-( rushed to kino to buy a book for my sis (the alchemist) becus i still remember mark lo saying it's a really nice book and i want to read it for myself hahahahaha then brisk walk-ed to orchard outlet and
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I FOUND THE FUCKING SHOE!!!!!!! hallelujah hahahahah was so freaking happy and thinking about it, why was i hesitant when paying? i love it ahhhh ahahahha and i bought a new top too (leather x shiny maroon)
was feeling proud and happy till i came home and checked my phone. told to change my style and i look like a typical chinese girl and my hair and my specs and my fasion sense.
OK OK OK STOP
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