27 March 2014

happy birthday. You were once someone of importance of me and it's a pity that we can only be acquaintances. This fate that we have, should end soon. I will never be close friends with you and I've since accepted that. I just hope that you will be healthy and happy.
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Been really tired lately, busy with orientation and work. These few weeks been really fun but my body has been showing signs of fatigue like pimples, eye bags and i feel moody these days. Had a five-hr shift today, it's enough to make my feet ache and curse at stupid customers and be pissed off for no reason. Tomorrow's my off day (literally nothing to do) and I'm excited at the thought of lazing around watching movies, drawing and listening to music.

Need to cherish tomorrow before i welcome another week of hell (which i secretly like)

Also, I realized that my portfolio has nothing. need to do some mentoring soon lol becus i have nth to my name sobs, cca open hse faster come pls so daniel can assign me to teach kids math.

My results were meh but i'm kinda lucky i guess to score Bs when some subjects i really didnt put in as much effort as i shld, need to work hard next sem!

(that's what i always say)

Thoughts that ran thru my head today

Been wasting my days doing nothing productive and my stamina (work wise) is getting worse. No longer can i work for 12 hrs straight without feeling shitty/tired/sad.
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Replayed "All of Me" the whole day and i just want to get married NOW and be blissfully happy with my husband. I want to be loved too.
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Today was damn boring. Work was shitty and i feel that i got compared to others and i lost cause i wasn't as pretty as her but i was too lazy to show my unhappiness.
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I realized that i portray myself as this cool person with a laid-back personality, someone who don't get agitated easily when actually, I'm the most short-tempered person. (to important matters)
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Need to read some encouraging quotes becus i just feel like crying these days and for no reason at all

BIG NEWS BIG NEWS

i finally joined insta with the help of my persistent empire mates hahhahaha

ok thats all

xoxo

fuck everyone

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS RESTRICTING ME FUCK YOU
WHY CANT I LIVE MY LIFE THE FUCKING WAY I WANT IT
FUCK YOU
FUCK ALL OF YOU

I'm the most awkward person you've ever met

Made friends with shaq today :) he said I'm as awkward as him and that's really not a compliment LOL and today... i messed up sigh i was so awkward around shaq and afiq??????? In the end, i gave myself away as afiq's angel -cries-

My thoughts are all jumbled up and i really hope that my evening run later can cheer me up. On a side note, I'm still trying to list the things that made me happy everyday but it's so hard to think of events on days like these. But, i believe strongly in myself. I did not get into hyruak by chance so i'm going to work hard to prove that Aaron made a right choice in accepting me into hyruak.

Really grateful to have Aaron :') the best FA ever and honestly, the only FA i can imagine myself sharing secrets with and i will show shaq that i can overcome this and be like him too.
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"no matter how bad you fuck up, or makes mistakes you've made during this year, your life, your eternity. You're always allowed to be better"- Donald Glover

Thank you zhiyi for attempting to cheer me up with quotes; the only thing that really motivates me to step up and change my life around, for the better.


xoxo

You're so fine

A tweeted the bobthebuilder challenge
MM approached me today hehehehehe
two presentations done today
talked to ryan today
invited to sing k with yy n friends
skipping sch tmrw

what's there not to be happy about?

;-)

xoxo

Can i be that special friend that you're willing to give up popularity for

Hi to anyone who has stumbled upon this meaningless space...
Deshi has been really good these days, so blessed and thankful to have them with me :-)
All those days of petty quarrels are over and i really feel like i belong here, they are my pillars of strength and there's nothing in the world that i will trade them for. Yesterday, the four of us decided to leave Rainbow. Sem 1.1 will always be the best sem ever, to me. The sem that was so fun, carefree, laughing everyday and not caring about seniors. Nowadays, it's more about impressing people.

I realised that i try to steer clear of all these but recently, i began thinking about it again.

I wish to be your friend...becus you're popular ):

This is bad because i know that if i try to be popular,I will only regret it in the end. I will get hurt, like always.

But the longing to be your friend is too much to bear.

Can I? Can I just be someone who means alot to you? I don't want to be popular, i just want to be close friends with popular people so i can listen to their problems and be happy that i know them and i mean alot to them. That's all i want. Being popular requires too much commitment. I just want to be the friend that is ranked first in your heart and that is enough for me.

Can you help me to fufill my wish?

help me.

please.


xoxo